Tattoo

Once when I was 19, I went to see an intuitive healer. At one point during the session, he mentioned I should start writing. I nodded and for the next 20 years I had sporadic bouts of writing, but only when inspiration called and never for long periods of time, that is until a big life changing event, but that is a story for a different day.

Things change, and for the better part of the last six years, I’ve been feeling the urge to write more without actually doing so. I look forward to embrace it now.

Inspiration is a funny thing for me. It comes at the most random times, while driving, in the shower, in the middle of teaching yoga or, like this morning, at 5:30 in the morning the day after getting a tattoo.

So this morning, I asked if I could go back to sleep and write when I woke. The answer I got was now (technically it was no, but autocorrect said now and that felt more accurate). So here we are…

It’s been 17 years since I last got a tattoo. When I decided to create this website and truly commit to my path as a healer, I decided that I wanted to get a tattoo to show that commitment to myself. I wanted a tattoo that not only represented who I am now, but who I will be in a years to come. A friend recommended the most beautiful tattoo artist, who does hand poked tattoos and healings. It was a very beautiful and intense experience filled with some joy, excitement, and like most things when there’s growth, resistance. Luckily, I was able to work through the resistance, because I was able to identify it. That’s the funny thing about resistance, it’s really not that scary if you can label it for what it is – preparing to step into something new and release what must go in order to do so.

Going back to 5:30 in the morning now, as I lay in bed typing this, I find myself staring at this forearm that no longer feels like it’s mine and yet it completely feels like it’s mine. There has been nothing on my left forearm for 39 years, and now for the rest of my life there is this beautiful acknowledgment of the path that I am preparing to fully embrace. And, I am definitely feeling all of the things… Excitement, anticipation for what is to come, joy, mild anxiety, and acceptance.